thats my ahma.

sigh.life's just like that. why do pple just leave so suddenly? i guess my ahma cant continue seeing this beautiful world for another 2 days.

sometimes life's just so unfair. she was healthy and well. alrite, not rly.but she looked healthy and fit. she was looking good when i visited her one and half weeks ago.

i was still joking arnd ytd when my mum called ytd to ask me go to TTS to visit my ahma. i tot my ahma was supposedly to be fine.i told my mum i'll visit her the next day.which is today. and when my mum told me she cant probably live thru last night, my heart dropped.

i dint noe the feeling of missing someone until ytd.all of our family members gathered at the hospital ytd.i was rly scared. i looked at her face. the face which ive seen for seventeen yrs.seventeen yrs. she's always the one cooking the nice home-cooked food for me.my fav food and made nice quilt for me. she's the one i always find when my pants or blouse has holes/ buttons drop. she's the one who chases me around the house with the cane when i was young and mischevious. she was the one who fed me spoon by spoon when i dont feel like having my meals.

i rly want to ask her later.if she's sad.i wna tell her i miss her.i love her.

as i see her lying on the bed ytd, was rly rly rly heartbroken.her face looked so so pale.

i cldnt stand it and went outside to cry.when my sis who's in taiwan on hol called and asked me wat happened i cried again.sigh.and my sis wants a video call to see my ahma.and she cried when she saw my ahma.

and all my ahma said was "不要哭"

i wanted to burst into tears again.

she's still so strong.

想念 长了翅膀
他跟着我流浪
独自 背着行囊
看着人来人往

躺在陌生的床
眼睛没办法合上
想着这些年过了一关又一关

也许我太逞强
但是我无时无刻都在想
你的臂弯

给我力量 陪我闯荡
也许我们都不讲
把爱留在 我的心上
超越了太多梦想
时光匆忙 不曾遗忘
随时可以回头看
那些时光 你在身旁
给我的温暖

给我力量 陪我闯荡
也许我来不及讲
你给的爱 放在心上
陪伴着每个夜晚
时光匆忙 不曾遗忘
有天可以回头看 那些时光
你在身旁 忘记了悲伤



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