2010 should've been out of my mind since it's already the 11th day into 2011. Maybe I should call this reflecting than brooding/harping on 2010. Haha. It's like everything just flashes through my mind each time I think about 2010- how I spent the 365days- which was mostly, I think, unfruitful.

Family has been a huge part of my life because I am a boring person and I don't have any commitments, of which even if I have, belongs to being a cinderella (a nicer term for maria like I always say). Arguments have been inevitable, but I don't really take them seriously, I think neither do my family members. Because that's how a family works, ain't it? Through roughs and patches, we get our lives passed like that. My 19-year-old sister likes to complain how childish I can be for a person as old as me. I don't know, I kind of agree, but that's how I am, right?! And I think she's a even more boring person than me because she doesn't have that childish element in her. What rubbish am I talking about seriously. Lol. But if those of you who have eyes, you can see I have a closer relationship with my youngest sister because the older one builds a wall around her. I know everyone does have a wall built around them. But for hers, it's so thick sometimes I think she's really in her own world. Maybe being childish is a good thing, which I don't think I can get rid of it, for the moment at least.

And I think sometimes I put forward my thoughts into words too quickly, which isn't doing any good for me. I like to....speak my thoughts out, and I can get really uncomfortable if I don't get it out of my mouth which non-literally gets out of my head as well.

So I'm really sorry friends if I've been to harsh on some words which most probably didn't sound nice and sound like it was hiding some meanings behind,especially. Because I think I have a pretty inquisitive personality (in nicer words) or bagua (in aunty terms since you guys like to call me that I'll let you all be happy for a post). I like to know 5W1H this person/thing is like this or like that. (*5w1h=who what where when why how)

So please don't be offended if I keep asking you guys questions kkkkkkk

Great, I know those of you who knows what I'm talking about will understand right! :)

Present and future. Hmmmm. Presently, I'm learning to comfort myself. You know, sometimes you just got to learn this skill especially when you can't get things you want ;) Haha. And these days some stuff that I see or hear, gives me the real urge to earn lots of money after I get out into the society- to shift into a nicer house (I typed home initially, but realised, I already have a nice home), to get a car for myself/family, to travel around, and to do all the things I want to do. I think it's really difficult to live in Singapore. With all the high prices for everything, and with the luxurious items each person wants to own, everyone just got to work real hard. Imagine getting all these things you dreamed for in other countries, for half the amount it is sold in Singapore.

I'm feeling better filtering some random thoughts. Of which, most, are still stuck in my brain because I can't really remember what I wanted to say about them. Hahahaha bad bad memory!