people do change, dont they?

learnt in consumer behaviour today that personality is consistent yet changing. i guess its the same as for people. for a moment, they are so them. yet, the next moment, things dont seem the way they are, people dont seem the way they should be. i never thought people could change so much. alright maybe not that much (im just exaggerating.hah) but i never imagined he/she could be the person he/she is now. maybe changed for the btr? i wont say exactly changed, though. maybe external factors caused the little change. afterall time has never been on our side helping us to do the meetups and chats. 谁都知道， 气候会变，更别说诺言。

and ive come to realise, i rly dont hv any friends. i do. but some hi!bye! friends. wats the use. close friends. i guess, im able to count them using just both of my hands. sad thing though. haha. im not a loner fyi. wahahas! just i guess i dont open up to pple abt myself, wat im thinking. so maybe tts y i dont hv many close friends. anyway, im already v happy to have these friends in my life. at least adding some colours to it (:

i hate to admit that im someone who doesnt fear death, it ranks 2nd i gues. i fear not being able to have close friends beside me. social need! (maslow's heirarchy of needs. heh) or rather not being loved. hahaha. love can be a big word alright. :D so friends, pls love me more. muahahas!

this isnt an emo post fyi, hahaas. just in case you guys think i am. just some thoughts from what ive seen and heard this few days (: