woah been 10 days since i last blogged. sry for not blogging! but anw, it doesnt matter cos not mch pple come and read. heh
great! last day of work today! dont need to see that irriating guy at work. zzzzz. im super pissed off with him! grrrrr. nvm abt him, not gna see him anymore. no more listening to his commands/ orders, no more listening to him bragging abt his cert of merit. no more listening to his bragging abt hving a gpa of 3.9/ 4. shitzxzxxzx
ive been dreaming of my ahma these 2 days and its abt her not left us yet. sigh. ri you suo si, ye you suo meng. lol. somehow these few months, i still few that shes always right there. imean not dead yet. read carrie's blog and i told her:
somethings are best done early. dont wait till the last min. when my grandma was on the hospital bed, i wanted to tell her ‘i love u’ so badly. yet the 3 magical words cldnt come out from my mouth bcos each time i wna say it, i felt paiseh(cos there were relatives there). i wanted to say the 3 words to make her feel btr. until she passed away, i hvnt even had the chance to say i love her so mch and thank her for all the wonderful things she did for me.
all i could do was to hold her hands tightly.
maybe cos humans cant express themselves clearly/ in the correct way. even small gestures can mean u love/ care abt that person. im someone who doesnt express her emotions in a clear manner like telling u i love u in your face. i wna tell my parents i lvoe them, but the words cant come out. i mean i will feel embarassed and feel weird. so, i always hold their hands or give them a nice hug on the shoulder. think this is wat i can do to make them feel i love them.
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