its 16 dec 2007,Sunday.im 17years,6 months and 18days old.

many people just walk in and out of your life.while some stay with you for many many many years,some others are just "hi-bye" people.

my ahma just passed away this morning. at 4plus am. she has been with me for the past 17years,6 months and 18days.

it's still like a dream to me. my parents went down to the hospital right after they got the phone call. this morning when they came back at 7 they told me.

i thought i was dreaming. rly.till now i still think its a dream.

i dont feel anything at all. except misses. i mean i dont feel sad or feel like crying. maybe bcos ive long accepted the fact that she's going to leave us soon. well,maybe theres a little tinge of sadness (:

hey pple, im okay.dont worry abt me!

last night when i went to see her she was slping. so i guess that's the last time i saw her. the last time i touched her hands was friday evening. i dint noe her ands felt smooth and rough at the same time.

my ahma was also v strong. she pulled through for 2weeks. just to see all of us. she, herself, has also long accepted the fact she's leaving. she said she saw my grandpa(who's already dead like 10yrs ago) on fri and told all of us to go down to see her cos she felt that she's leaving soon. so all of us rushed down.but she looked fine.hah. and the funny part was she forgt she said she asked all of us to go down to see her when my mum asked her wat happened. she said my grandpa hit her mouth to say that.hahas.isnt she funny. and she still say "y am i still so alert?" and she said maybe she wun die on that day (fri).

lol.sigh,my ahma rly v funny. i guess i inherited from her! :D

i dint even get the chance to tell her i love her. and i still wanted to tell her to tell me in my dreams whr she went aft she died.

i guess life's rly unpredictable. friday midnight,aft all of u went home, she called to say her whole body was aching. and everyone went back.okay,just the adults. and she wanted everyone to stay overnight cos she wants them to see her pass away. but she still pulled through friday and saturday night. its only this morning/ sat midnight, when everyone was tired and went home, she passed away peacefully.

i hvnt see her body yet. going down later. i guess these 2 weeks will be busy for me! have to go the funeral as well as doing projs and studying for exam! i shall burn lots of josssticks for my ahma to ask her to bless me for exams.haha.best is she can change the marks for me (: or best is she go scare the marker marking my paper and ask that guy to change the marks. LOL.

i guess my ahma will be pretty. she told my aunt to let her wear skirt. ive nver seen her wearing a skrt bfore! cool.

her tablet and ashes will be placed at the temple near my house. tgt with my deceased grandfather and my 2nd uncle's first wife. i hope my ahma rmbs the road back to my house (i think she wil rmb clearly) and brings my ye-ye tgt with her to visit us. but i hope they can wear nicer and appear friendlier when they come and visit me :D